Beginnings

Brain the most knotty and intricate object to understand. I don't even dare to learn how it processes zillions of things simultaneously. One moment you are thinking of this and BOOM... next moment something else totally unrelated and discrete. All this happens in fraction of seconds... Well this post has nothing to do with functioning or facts of brain.... so those who hate biology and its details can harmlessly continue further :P 

Point is-> We think a lot, we plan in loads. Gotta  do this n that. Need to buy this, need to learn that song, try that piece of music, to get a dress, need to finish the book, complete the syllabus  and list can go on like some never ending railway tracks. I don't know about you all but scads of my time exhausts in trying to decide Now, What next and than whole planning and soi-distant thought process starts all over again. 

 Biggest hiccup is the BEGINNING.

[ Biggest road block]- is to get started, not at all easy to cross. Whether you wanna start substantiating a time table, an exercise, a book or anything. This initial callow phase is the time when you are more likely to leave it and hop to some another one. [ I've lost the count of the times I've started going for morning walk...... initial fun days and than... well rest is better left unsaid :P]. Getting started is fine, but to keep that pace and carry on further is the real catch. Darn those days when the whole enthusiasm and zeal withers and you end up with squat.  

The beginning is the most important part of the work- Plato.

I think, I start

I train my brain 

to begin.

But, then again 

the train of thoughts 

kicks its engine 

and lefts me 

wandering in the voids

Keep Thinkin.. 

I've an infinite store

Of placebos and excuses.

This brain is inured

it never confuses .

I plan, I proceed

I train my brain 

to begin.

But the bells

of "new things"

Keep Ringin..

I can go on
I don't.
Games of push and pull
and paper, scissor, rock.
I puzzle, I daze

I train my brain 

to begin.
Time pass by
and hands of the clock
keeps Tickin..

Beginning is the stage 

hard as nails I guess. 

Its cryptic

tough to stick. 

I devise, I decide

I train my brain 

to begin.

But, this time

train got brakes 

It got a driver

I'm the one who 

is Drivin... 

Well habits can change. If our benighted ancestors can learn to tame wild animals, I think we can train our fiendish brain to behave in our own terms. I'm gonna try at least. 

So you guys ever faced this much touted problem of -getting started and than keeping it up ???

CHAOS

According to the Oxford Dictionary 'Chaos' literally means- A state of extreme confusion and disorder. Extreme randomness.....too random to make any sense. Don't think even for a second that Random Scribblings is  going for the same extreme randomness :P  I'm writing all this in full sense and not at any ungodly hours but at 6.00 PM in the evening. 

By 'chaos' here I mean the anxiety, the uncertainty,  the possibility and probability of newness. The puzzled and qualmish state (in good sense) to experience something out of box. Things beyond the floors and ceilings. A phase of boundlessness and no-limits.

What’s this miraculous hack?

It’s a simple one: let go. Let go of control and allow yourself to be swept away by the powerful currents of life. Let go of planning and embrace not know what will happen. Let go of productivity and be open to new ideas, new opportunities, spontaneous creativity. 

A place to go

where I've never been before.

Butterflies fluttering inside

eager to know what's outside. 

Not a moment of silence 

just the noise and urge 

to take more, to see more 

feeling of elation and devour. 

Fragrance of inspiration

scope of novel creations. 

Possibility of exploring 

a treasure

with just bare hands. 

Feasibility of fabricating 

a castle with 

pebbles and dry sand.

Leave behind the 

monsters of details.
Let the veil of odds unveil.
Make the things slide
For a moment of change.
Let them derail.
One step forward from
this era of pre-defined 'Time'
Sometimes this ticking time

becomes fuckin foe of mine. 

Friedrich Nietzsche says - You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.  
I say- Lets have this chaos with in us. Order and arrangements and rules are good ( no doubt in that) but too much is always bad.... Sometimes lil derailment from the regular things is not only good but it's vital.

What do you guys say ??

Unsaid

Relationships are complex.... they are coiled and zigzagged to understand and to put in words. Most of us are blessed as we can talk things off. But, few are there who can never or in more appropriate words they won't. That's the way they are.

Not everyone is good at expressing the way he/she feels. They are well aware of the fact and way the other person feels but they can never say and they never will. All their feelings are bottled up and things and are just left unsaid.. !!!

Read this twisted case of a father and a son who were fated to live together. But look how it turned out.

There are things
you'll never say.
I know, coz
You and I
We are born that way.
Father, you never have to say.
Because I know they are there.
Will always be
Even when you'll be gone
and my hair will  turn grey.

Love you shower
in your taunts and anger.
I know the way you
mask your feelings
without a slight delay.
Theatrics very often
you display.

Care which you hide
in your voiceless whispers..
At times, to pull me back
you just push me away.
Hardly you blab my name
for weeks and days.
but, you add it
every single time you pray.

I am well aware of that
love and care.. trust me
you never have to say.
You love me and
I love you more.
But, I'll never say.
coz, Father
You and I
We are born that way.

Can someone really suppress their feelings to this extent ?? 

 Can someone leave things like this unsaid ??

Never Give Up

 There are times when all I see is Confusion and Mess. Lock stock and barrels of my armada becomes completely useless and all the "silver lining" thing philosophy seems total absurd. 

In such befogging situations when I can't focus on whatever I'm working on, 
my daddy says only two words- "Keep Trying" and somehow these words cheer me up. 

Who says alchemists doesn't exist. I say they do and they're all around us. Few lines of wisdom ( doesn't matter if it is created/copied/stolen) by someone can really boost my morale up and pave the way forward. 

Pablo Picasso once said, “God is really only another artist. He invented the giraffe, the elephant and the cat. He has no real style. He just keeps on trying other things.” 
My point is if I can adapt this Keep Trying characteristic of God than may be one day (hmmmm no I don't want to be a God  :P) I will be able to cheer up a confused soul, as my daddy do all the time without an exception.

Yolanda Adams, famous gospel singer writes-

Visions that can change the world trapped inside an ordinary girl.
She looks just like me too afraid to dream out loud.
And though it's simple your idea, it won't make sense to everybody .
You need courage now If you're gonna persevere.
To fulfill you purpose, you gotta answer when you're called.
So don't be afraid to face the world against all odds. 

We all are surrounded by a circular array of disappointments/ distractions/ diversions/ defamers/ disputes and what not, whose sole objective is to make you feel delirious, bedevil and leave you at crossroads. Above mentioned D's  need not to be of gross quality, even small boring events of day to day life can coerce you to an edge and what left is exasperation and agony. High-speed neurons banging your cerebra and limbic system fighting hard for zilch. Only thing that can keep your sinking boat afloat is by throwing away all these high voltage theatrical thoughts aside and start all over again.

I know, its easy said than done. But, what other alternative do we have here. All we need is someone to give a hug with a little positive-sugar-coated advice. Trust me these small talks and one- liners can do wonders in such situations. 

Keep the dream alive don't let it die
If something deep inside keeps inspiring you to try, don't stop
And never give up, don't ever give up on you.

Every victory comes in time, work today to change tomorrow
It gets easier, who's to say that you can't fly.

Life can never be easy. Its full of twists and turns.... It's just Like A Game.

Disappointments, disturbances
are part of life
Diversions, distractions
all you strife
What matters, is how you
play this game
With endless hard disk
But, limited RAM.

Sometimes life can place a stumbling block in your way
But you're gotta keep the faith, bring what's deep inside your heart yeah your Heart to the light And never give up Don't ever give up on you. 

I strongly believe that this formula doesn't apply only at individual level but it can be applied in all the domains and spheres, especially at social and political level. There are flaws ( way too big and way too many )   but we should not sit idle and watch the show. We gotta do something, and if it fails ( I guess, most of the time it will) we should not give it up, rather we'll keep trying again and again. 

Rotten Wood Cannot Be Carved.

Children are the most beautiful creature on earth. Neonates be it of a homo sapiens  or of any other species, they are delicate and beautiful. Look at a cub, a hatchling, a piglet or young ones of any ugly looking species. They are adorable, innocent, very adaptive and eager to learn new things. That's the way nature works. Whatever you teach, they will follow you accordingly. Therefore education plays an important role in shaping up our whole personality. 

We are what we are because of the kind of education and upbringing we got.

 But, only few are Lucky !!!! 

She was born 

in a house, full of holes. 

Scrawny and scraggly

she grown. 

With tattered frocks 

and no one by.

She fancies, may be one day 

she'll have a good-life.

School- just a name of another place. 

She returns, everyday with a Blank Face.

Object of mockery 

nothing more. Rag picking and 

rambling was her chores.

She perfected slanguage

in matter of days. 

Her life got twisted 

like some messy maze.

Her pupillage, now she says

is culpable, for what

she is today. She doesn't blame

but, claims.

'If I wasn't  left 

like a forest wood to rot'.

I could have been carved 

in some fancy piece.

But, now I am lousy,

like some despicable disease.   

The whole purpose of this tirade was to convey that not education, but a better, proper and quality education holds the realm of possibility of a good-life. 
 Sadly millions of children are bereaved of it.

We not only lack physical capital but human capital too. I really appreciate the people who are working for this noble cause . In betwixt and between of fake policies and promises there are few people and groups who are selflessly working in field of promoting quality education.

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One of my friend owns an NGO and working on a project called by name Project PustakShala which aims at establishing a creative library in Govt. Schools across India.

A lovely idea -- 

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One wise man aptly said -

"To raise a son without learning is raising an ass; to raise a daughter without learning is raising a pig."

Insanity

Insanity Sanity- a state of total mind control. When you are fully aware of the fact that you are doing right thing at right time and place. Tragedy is  you can never find a properly documented list of sane/insane acts. Line which divides sanity from freaking illogical insanity is an absolute blurr. Transition from sane to insane is so smooth that it is almost impossible to catch its glimpse... you miss the precious moment all the time.

We all suffer from sudden episodes of it... sometimes we realize it, we apologize and amend things. But damn there are few times when we practically do Blunders. The probability and intensity of executing such blunders increases amazingly when you are with your best buddies  :P  Lets say that 

it just adds another bump in the roller-coaster ride of your life.

Is it just ME or everyone else thinks too that-

"Insanity in individuals is something rare but in
groups, parties, nations, and epochs it is the Rule"

Lets discuss the arcane case 

of the gene-insane. 

Some may label it, as an act of 

a typically damaged brain. 

When we are alone, literally busy doing nothing :P this insanity resides miles away. We do fine in our own fortress of solitude. May be because the tiny brain of ours is unaffected by the garbage all around. But all the wisdom goes blank when you are in company of your friends. If you want to see it in practical, go out in evening and observe a group of peers.. unnecessary burst of laughter, long discussions on illogical points, proving the other one wrong, pulling legs and what not. You can write thesis on insanity if you observe too long. :D 
I see no harm in this, this temporary insanity fills our life fun moments. 

As I said all these misdeeds are harmless when they are confined to pint-sized things. Everything is fine if the context is small. Complication arises when same kind of activities are disposed of by groups (NGOs), parties(political parties), nations (govt) at large. I just gave a single instance of every type and it won't be an exaggeration if I say that all of them have taken insanity to an entirely new level.

Blame games in the name of discussion, monetary profit in the name of development and growth, fancy policies just to fill the A4 size paper ( wasting tonnes of paper). Its like all of them are lost in this ubiquitous mist of insanity and got no one to snap them out of it. 

Insanity is now their moral code. Everyone has somehow acclimated to this new improved definition of SANITY. 

I'm worried... Are you ???

Dangerous DOUBT

Many of times despite of all preparation, motivation and confidence a tiny 'doubt' pops out and shakes everything around. Like a virus it comes out of thin air and leave its deadly germs. This "Doubt" constantly bothers you. The continuous inner struggle of twisted, knotted apparently opposed things. 

Abstruse habit of absolute perfection is somewhere along the line is responsible for this doubtful-behavior most of us have.

Dangerous 'Doubt'

Dangerous 'Perhaps'

Both have the potential to alter anything in a big big way. 

D

Out of nowhere 

in middle of something 

vital. Baneful presence 

of even a tiny DOUBT

can alter the final projection 

throughout. 

Some say, doubts

are not always bad. 

Is it ??

Be a pure pedantic.

cross every T's 

and dot every I's. 

Answer every What's 

Find every Why's. 

But, is that the way 

you like to work ???

Always judgmental

Constant self-questioning 

and a never ending state of 

dubiety. Where goes the 

concepts of probability, 

confidence and mental ability ?

One thing that has helped me in such situations is Boyzone's song " No Matter What" 

No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true.

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back !!

When you smell a presence of doubt

What you will do ? Speak out...