I think, therefore I am.

Thinking about something is like picking up a stone when taking a walk, either for skipping rocks on the beach or looking for a way to shatter the glass doors of a museum. When you think about something, it adds a bit of weight to your walk, and as you think about more and more things you are liable to feel heavier and heavier, until you are so burdened you cannot take any further steps, and can only sit and stare at the gentle movements of the ocean waves or security guards, thinking too hard bout too many things to do anything else. 
 ― Lemony Snicket, The End  
 

  There's no special time-frame or a slot in your time table when you sit down and think. Its like a   biological, not everyone thinks,  natural process that goes on in background all the time. I do it all the time... knowingly or unknowingly the process is on. Even between the time when I'm half awake and half asleep just when I'm almost sure that day is off and the veiled Peter Pan in me can escape in my perfect Neverland. A thought, out of nowhere, closes the doors of my dreamy land away and leaves me digressing in the boondocks of my unceasing thoughts. 

I almost slept 
may be seen a dream or two
and then it happened
Out of nowhere
that midget thought
unloaded in my head.

It was already booming
with the debris 
I collected that day
No more, my stack's 
full I pray. 
Then I start talking
to no one, but Me. 
Too ergodic 
all that clutter
makes no sense. 
to Me. 

Then I cling on to one
out that mesh of mess
I pick one.. 
about the days gone by 
or time yet to come.
Basked in those 
misty thoughts
my sleep is long gone 
twisting and curling 
on my bed
euphony is on. 

I can think so much
may be it never ends 
when this night ends 
there's another at hand. 
I sleep with one 
and I wake with one
with everything on
it goes on and on. 

I dread of the day 
if it ever stopped 
I'll be awake
for forever, glancing 
wild blue yonder
or will I sleep it all ?

BRAINWASHED

There's an ethereal process of brainwashing going on. Hidden from everyone, somewhere deep down in our sub-conscious it disperses. Do you know how people are brainwashed ? Repetition of something over and over. Owning things is good. More money is good. More property is good. Power is good. Powerful is good. More commercialism is good. More of anything is good. Politicians are bad. Religion is good. Men Vs Women, Public Vs Private, Poor Vs Rich, the eternal fights. No matter what elders are always right. We repeat it--and have it repeated to us--over and over until nobody bothers to even think otherwise. The average person is so fogged up by all of this, he has no perspective on what's really important anymore. The concept of Morphic Field and Resonance seems to be working effectively in this case.

  ~Ref: Tuesdays with Morrie

"Morphic Field and Resonance is the idea that, through a telepathic effect or sympathetic vibration, an event or act can lead to similar events or acts in the future or an idea conceived in one mind can then arise in another".

I wake up early in the morning 

do chores, as my mum says.

I've made goals,

craving, working hard.

I know where I'd be 

in few more days.

But, there are rules 

I can't bend. 

bounded within limits

trends, stats, already set.

Flightless birds, so many 

waiting, for generations 

tirelessly.  

They have the ideas 

tattooed in their minds. 

Anchored to those..

they run in a loop 

endlessly.  

Some are good,

deserve replication, surely

But, some deserve 

termination, yes certainly. 

  

Brainwashed robots

we've become.

Impotent to dissect 

fiction in reality. 

Don't blame it on 

morphic resonance. 

or on chemical imbalance. 

Get some grip on your 

personalized self-reality.  

All meanings, we know...

There exists a great chasm between people to people, on one side, who relate everything to a single, universal, organizing principle in terms of which alone all that they are and say has significance--and, on the other side, those who pursue many ends.Their thoughts are scattered or diffused, moving on many levels, seizing upon the essence of a vast variety of experiences and objects for what they are in themselves, without, consciously or unconsciously.

All meanings, we know, depend on the key of interpretation.

~ George Elliot.

 Its all there in what one thinks at individual level.Thinking which is more like an abstract painting, with all sorts of scrambled shapes and colors emerging from those peculiar personal semantics whose significations are different for everyone.

  

Devil is here.

No, its not.

Its there.

Where it is ?

Is it there in details ??

or there in those nanny tales ??

I say nay.

It's not 

anywhere.

Its there

in the gray matter.

splattered across the walls 

walls of.. 

Sophisticated trained

altered -brains. 

Biased, tainted

painted they are

with atypical 

renditions n restrains.

Aye or Nay

But things were

never black n white

they were always 

Gray.

Fuzzy logic

all the way.

every one got 

a different say.

Irregular Minds

"Brain is complex" oftentimes I use this statement. Those who read me regularly might have read this statement many times before in my previous posts. Reason is I've always been intrigued by its unpredictable and anarchic nature of operations. There is no way of knowing what other person is thinking and how he/she is catching the drift of what you are trying to say. Its like a shot in the cimmerian shade and you never know whether its going to hit the target or not. 

Everyone's thinking is unique, that's an established fact. Each one of us have our brains wired differently and logically this only makes us one of a kind  person. What one thinks is right is never necessarily right for others too. You can play the game of "I'm right and You are wrong" endlessly with ones who have contradicting thoughts. Its like everyone have this personal process of cerebration and deductions and its not at all easy to understand. But here lies the problem too.... there are people who have this intricacy trait of highest order. Like some impossible mathematical theorem and byzantine tax structures their fortress of mind is impenetrable.

Like Shakespeare says in Macbeth-

"There's no art to find the mind's construction in the face."

What she thinks 

is unknown to me. 

It's like some constant 

trick played on me.

What I said and 

What she got.

I never got to know 

what she actually thought. 

I shot the arrow 

but its a hit or a miss,

is a mystery

lost in abyss.

Like a test of a subject 

you never read before.

Its preposterous to predict

how much you gonna score.

This mind is master

it devises whole thing round. 

In pool of thoughts 

either you float or you drown. 

It is complex 

I know deep down. 

Still I try, and 

when I find squat 

I just frown. 

Like that we always use our best of communication skills to convey our brainworks and musings to others but trying to know that how that person in front is taking it, is like executing an infinite loop. In computers when we encounter an infinite iterative piece of code either we terminate the program or we debug it and correct the logical error. But perceptions and thoughts ain't some computer program and you can't change its variables and debug errors. They are simply irregular minds with different development and different design processes and in order to understand this complex process, all you can do is.. NOTHING. Because understanding is like a WINE, it ripens more and more with time.