It is
necessary ... for a person to go away by himself ... to sit on a rock ... and ask,
'Who am I, where have I been, and where am I going? ― Carl Sandburg
In this chaotic life-style it is
very unlikely that I find time to introspect. I intend to keep going and going.
Waiting for none and in some contorted way waiting forever for everyone. As I'm
never satisfied, I guess nobody is. Wish list keeps growing and I keep making
appends and amends. My own mind is like an unsafe neighborhood, I seldom go
there for help. I read and observe others, learn from others, often mimic those
whom I find perfect. Introspection is something I avoid, knowingly or
unknowingly I don't know. As Toba Beta's
heart my heart too fails to see its own sins.
What I'm so frightened of ? Why I seek solace in others ? Am I so frightened to look inside, to go deep inside that I keep floating on the fringes ? Sometimes I guess I should interact more, not with others but myself. I should dive deep into this unexplored territory and descend into this cold abyss of myself.
What I'm so frightened of ? Why I seek solace in others ? Am I so frightened to look inside, to go deep inside that I keep floating on the fringes ? Sometimes I guess I should interact more, not with others but myself. I should dive deep into this unexplored territory and descend into this cold abyss of myself.
What I lost
what I found
too lavishly or too little
on the way, as I move around
Merry-go-rounds of
connections, webs in which I seems to lost
separations, that are caustic
even if small was the cost
I complain to no one, complain none
though, deceit was lurking
on every turn
but, sometimes it was fun
I look back and see
shed some leaves off of my memory
tale of every small town, every city
some appreciated, others pitied
Whispering unto my own ears
what's good and what's bad
how much I'm happy
how much my scale flips for sad
Whispering mutely, meant for none
better not to ponder on many but one
defining my own, unexampled
theory of funk and fun..
The
mind becomes much more beautiful,
when man could see his own weaknesses.
― Toba Beta, Master of Stupidity
when man could see his own weaknesses.
― Toba Beta, Master of Stupidity
Like the use of merry go rounds as it is so true, as around we go.
ReplyDeleteround n round n round :)
Deleteमनुष्य इन मूल प्रश्नों से इतना घबराता है कि इनसे भागने के लिये न जाने कितने साधन एकत्र कर लेता है।
ReplyDeletesahi kaha aapne..
Deletewe just keep messing around !!
Merry-go-rounds of
ReplyDeleteconnections...somehow this was the hook for me here...just coming back from basle where i gave a city tour to some customers and i showed them the fortune wheel over the side entrance of the münster church.. it's about how life sometimes goes good and sometimes bad..for me always symbolizes that everything has two sides and they go hand in hand and somehow make sense as well..
you are right claudia... everything has a flipside :)
Deletethanks !!
loved "defining your own theory of funk and fun"
ReplyDeleteand I totally agree with ya..:)
Its important to introspect.. to spend sometime with ourselves and to ask ourselves as many questions as we can ..:)
thnx for the kick..:)
thank you Jamina..
Deletealways a pleasure to see u :)
You make me think. All the time.
ReplyDeleteI wish that I could look into myself. But no, I run. All the time.
Beautiful writing.. Lovely quotes :)
glad I can do that..
DeleteWhy do we run.. that's where I was struggling !!
जिन खोजा तिन पाईयां गहरे पानी पैठ
ReplyDeleteमैं बपुरा डूबन डरा रहा किनारे बैठ
कबीर
और नीचे उतरो ज्योति :-) Contemplate! One day you may meet to your 'self' and then nothing would remain unknown to you! Since our Upnishads man's this quest continues ....' KOAHAM KOAHAM ( WHO AM I ,WHO AM I ?? )May be you succeed one day to get the answer ( seriously ,no pun)
A lovely comment as always A...
DeleteI wish to go deep down n down :)
and hopefully one day I'll get the answers !!
Yes. Love the image "shed some leaves off of my memory" creates.
ReplyDeleteIt is so very easy to lose ourselves in the constantly multiplying webs of connection. And around an around we go.
VR Barkowski
Thank you mam..
Deletetrue.. it's very easy to get lost !!
Introspection is something which helps me in devoting some time for myself in this fast paced world. It's the only way to find the meaning of life,existence.....
ReplyDeleteNice one.
the only way it is :)
Deletethanks Himadri !!
'Whispering mutely, meant for none
ReplyDeletebetter not to ponder on many but one
defining my own, unexampled
theory of funk and fun..'
I think this is the core of the verses.Very philosophical,jyoti. Introspection prevents one from repetition of the wrong deeds.
Agree with you... it saves us in many ways :)
Deletethanks
We sometimes become a prisoner of our own thoughts. It is important to introspcet, but it is more important to introspect the right way
ReplyDeleteright Ritesh...
Deletewe can get lost otherwise
the wait is over.. it s come, check my blog :P
ReplyDeleteCongratulations Deeps..
DeleteI visited :)
Theory of fun and funk - that sounds interesting :-)
ReplyDeletethank you Amrit :)
DeleteA lot of us run away from introspecting,we'd rather just avoid that.But we all need to introspect every now and then so as to improve in our actions and behaviors.Nice poem!
ReplyDeletetrue.. it is must for self-improvement..
DeleteBeing comfortable with oneself is so very important. You are right.
ReplyDeleteIndeed :)
Deletethank you Sir !!
beautiful words....lovely lines!
ReplyDeletethank you..
Deleteglad you liked it :)
I complain to no one, complain none
ReplyDeletethough, deceit was lurking
on every turn
but, sometimes it was fun
Truly said, Jyoti! One is not to bother others. Let them be! Though rightly, there are others who try to bother us, we just laugh at them! Life can be fun! Nicely!
Hank
hehe.. yeah it can be fun if we want to :)
Deletethank you Hank !!
lovely read
ReplyDeletethanks to both of you :)
DeleteNice post. To understand others it is more important to know yourself first and interact with yourself.
ReplyDeletethank you mam..Totally agree with u.
DeleteHopping by from the followers hop.
ReplyDeleteNew follower. Great post. :)
Welcome Sania.. thanks
Deletehope to see u more :)
Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteand I'm hopping by to say hi.
http://www.constanceburris.blogspot.com/
Hello Constance :)
DeleteWelcome here !!
It's nice to meet you, Jyoti; I'm from the blog hop, as well! I think your blog is amazing, so I'm totally following you now. I think many people, including myself, can relate to your posts; sometimes, it feels like life just keeps going and going, and we don't have time (or won't give ourselves time) to mentally catch up with everything that's going on. For me, this summer has been the perfect opportunity for me to do just that.
ReplyDeleteHope you're having a wonderful week! Would love for you to stop by and say hello if you'd like. :)
~Wendy Lu
The Red Angel Blog
hey Wendy, nice to meet u too :)
DeleteWelcome here.. hope to see u more !!
अपने अंदर झांकना और फिर बाहर की दुनिया से सामना करना ... जीवन यही तो है ...
ReplyDeleteAgree with you sir.. :)
Deletethank you for that....
ReplyDeletemaybe visit again and you will know how to get it...
by the way, this is a nice post, i think we all need to ask more n more questions to ourselves...the kind of questions that would unravel ourselves...
I did.. Thanks :)
Deletetrue.. and that unraveling is an ever going process. Isn't it ?
so true in the web of our wake all the connections that come behind us...we have to choose who we will listen to as well...some will affirm us, so derail and some be truthful no matter...its all in the discerning who is....
ReplyDeletewell, i think its natural..everybody wants to find solace in others..one cannot find it in their own heart :(
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