Patience is always rewarded, Is it ??

Do you have the patience to wait until your mud settles and the water is clear ~ Lao Tzu

Patience is something that doesn't come naturally, not to me at least. It's like one of those drinks which I always want to taste but, guess what, I'm  too penurious to buy it.  Impatient heart races fast, trust me... very fast and it pumps so hard that sometimes I feel like it'll come out and it will redecorate the walls that stand beside me. But I deny the fact all the time. There's no way in my right mind you'll ever see me agreeing that -"I'm patience-deficient". I'll lie right away, on your face, like any sane person would. 

I guess I need melioration. I want to be more like that antecedent river that keeps flowing in the same way no matter what shall come in its way. Will I ever be able to do that.. Well I'm leaving that to later times.

Patience, the elixir

people say, I find it hard

to look at it that way

what's wrong in

swimming little fast

stroll a little longer

along the ocean vast

Unlimited, my desires

queries that I acquire

ideas bombarding my head

diffused, perching in shreds

holding off, just to set free

temptations, incentives

of copious degrees

I know people are right

I just wonder why they always are

warriors they say, time and patience are

trying hard, not to babble

from this blithering mouth

just wanna learn directions

before things, as they can, go south

Flaccid heart of mine

runs marathon everyday

with this ceaseless scrimmage

construction followed by damage

then synthesis again

new queries, different reasons

new plot, a whole new stage

Be patient Rainer Maria says, toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like those locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer :)