"I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one
falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to
you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion."
~ Jack Kerouac
Here I stand confused feeling like there's two poles inside my head and like a blind man at cross-road I think that somebody will come up to me and help. But, sometimes there's no one to help and blind man has no option but to tap his stick on the ground to assess and tread.
It's so confusing sometimes
unwanted rage, conflicting desires
in this age so prime
what is it that I want ?
what is it that I aspire ?
ohh, these crooked desires..
unwanted rage, conflicting desires
in this age so prime
what is it that I want ?
what is it that I aspire ?
ohh, these crooked desires..
Ahead, two boulevards for me to take
picking one is what I dread
do not want an imprint of mistake
fear failure and it's lash-like taste
what if ? I doctored one instead
affecting all of what's waiting ahead
Push and pull hurts me most
uncalled for reproach and abuse
beginning of the feeling like I lost
dropping dead on some random spot
what if ? all this is just a ruse
just to complex the confuse
They say listen to your heart
and silence all that ails
sever all that thwarts
but how would I know
which train to derail ?
or which one's a favorable sail ?
It's so confusing sometimes
there are no such complications
like confusions of a simple mind.
We all go through these confusions albeit of different nature at different stages in life. Confusions of a simple mind, expressed poetically. Nice.
ReplyDeletethank you mam !!
DeleteIt is difficult knowing what road to take and I do tend to listen to my heart. I sometimes look back wondering what my life would be like if I made different choices and it is true I might have had a 'better' job etc. - but then I wouldn't have what I have now - my lovely husband and children. It is probable that if I had made different choices - I would have met someone else and not my husband - but there is no guarantees I would be happy...now. And I am happy now.
ReplyDeleteAnna :o]
you are a lovely soul..
DeleteI wish I'll make right choices as u did :)
वैसे तो ये जीवन ही असमंजस है ... पर फिर भी रास्ता नज़र आ जाता है ... किरण निकल ही आती है ...
ReplyDeleteand I'm all set to find that :)
Deletethank you Sir !!
what to say ? i m confused !
ReplyDeleteme too :P
DeleteWhat to choose and what to lose that is dilemma :-)
ReplyDeletea dilemma that needs solving..
DeleteYeah they come all the time, best we can do is try to figure out what the best course is and go with it.
ReplyDeleteI'm trying to do the same :)
DeleteConfusions, our only soul mate at every point in time. Loved the poem, Jyoti.
ReplyDeletehaha.. yeah in a way they are !!
Deletethanks :)
चित्त रंग में, रागद्वेष में,
ReplyDeleteआग्रह मन के पशोपेश में।
:)
Deletelife can def be overwhelming and confusing at times as wel try to find our way through...like a blind man stumbling forward until we are in it....
ReplyDeletem trying Brian..
DeleteLife is full of choices like forks at many stages in the road we travel.We win sometimes and lose in some but take things in our stride.A nice poem.
ReplyDeletethanks for this lovely advice..
Deletein a time like this.. it helped
I am not a great fan of poetry so I cannot make out the in-depth meanings.. But I can make this out that something is bothering you and it's not about a to-do list, I suppose. But other types of confusions are very easy to solve.. Just listen to your heart and don't reason with it.. everything shall sort out itself.
ReplyDeleteyou guessed it right..
Deletegoing through a confusing phase.
will sort it out eventually :)
We will choose what we have to!
ReplyDeleteyes.. somehow we do :)
Deletethe best part is you r not stagnent but moving ahead and thats when confusions n hurdles are to be crossed n passed...
ReplyDeleteSmiles..
Deletethat was really a nice thing u said :)
everyone gets confused every now and then and specially the feeling that we make a choice now and a few years later might look back and say "what if" . could totally connect to every line that you have written. one thing is for sure the fear of wrong choices shall not stop us from following our heart. when you follow your heart confusions fade away.:)
ReplyDeleteI'm trying to figure out that "where my heart lies" part...
Deletethanks Jemina !!
Beautiful. ohh, these crooked desires!
ReplyDeleteMy grandfather always said to pick a direction and go. Period. People who spend too long in indecision never get anywhere. I know what he means. I spent too many years in that place with my writing, and although it's fine to start now, I look back and realize how far I'd be if I'd simply jumped in 5 years ago when I had the makings for a start.
*sigh*
Indecision is a killer.
I wish I can choose in right time..
Deletethanks for sharing that Crystal.. !!
oh i def. so can feel this...the kerouac quote and your poem... i can relate.. i like so many things - and i tend to run and try things out but always a race against time and i need to learn to set priorities..
ReplyDeletePriorities.. another big buzz word right now in my life :)
Deleteguess I gotta learn that too :P
&, then a school of thoughts says- don't worry with confusions, they are just result of too many options & even that having many options is great :)
ReplyDeleteHappy Blogging!
Weakest LINK
that's another way of looking at it :)
Deletehalf-glass full approach :)
happy blogging to u too Rachit
Perhaps this unpredictability dealing with confusions is what makes life all the more interesting :-)
ReplyDeleteyeah..
Deleteit does add lil spice..
I really liked the way you interpreted it :)
This is the phase of the youth now running from destiny to destiny and vice versa also.
ReplyDeleteSmiles :D
Deleteseem we all sail on same boat... too much is always not good.
ReplyDeletehope u did u r exams well :)
same boat Jeevan :)
Deleteexams were good.. !!
Life is full of complications...and the older I get, the more it seems to be ~ I guess its part of the journey ~
ReplyDeleteI think you are right..
Deleteall I gotta do is go on :)
Brilliantly said. The confusion of what path to take next in my life is exactly what is upsetting me at present. There are choices I need to make and I am worried about which ones to take. Your words were so refreshing and comforting. Well said.
ReplyDeletethanks Muress.
DeleteI u make all the right decisions :)
Good luck
Keep listening to your heart no trains would derail:)
ReplyDelete:)
Deletethank you Sir !!
Confusion leads to choices, and choice is both privilege and curse rolled into one. A privilege because we determine our own fates, a curse because we must accept responsibility for the decisions we've made.
ReplyDeleteVR Barkowski
true..
DeleteI wish I will make all the right ones
simply sweet :)
ReplyDeletethank you Ankur..
DeleteWelcome here !!
Welcome here !!!
ReplyDeletethanks :)
They say listen to your heart
ReplyDeleteand silence all that ails
Exactly, that should be a good way. One gets to be guided by the immediate thought in mind. One will not be far from wrong! Nicely Jyoti!
Hank
I felt I could relate to it - it is good to keep things simple. Unwanted complications make life tougher - if life could be simpler - perhaps we might see more smiles going round.
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